Dear Future-Self

Dear future-self, 

Life is hard, but you have to be strong. I hope you're smiling right now but there will be days when you would want to give up, don't because you have to continue and prove others wrong. People will forget what you did for them, get used to it. You will make mistakes and you will regret some of them too but you have to keep up. People will try to find your weakness and then destruct you using it but don't let them be strong. It will be hard, harder than it seems but remember some people will always be there to support you and don't let them go. But do not depend yourself on other person, try being your own holder. This world, it gets crueler everyday, you have to fight it and get on the top. If you can't get over someone who you thought would stay forever, you will move on trust me.You may think you will never find love again but there will always be someone to prove you wrong, there will always be someone who will love you much more. So trust me, whatever you're going through now, better things will come. I never believed people when they said this but I got over it and you will too. 

Don't beg people to stay, if they wanted to they would never make you beg, just show them their worth in your life and they will stay. No matter how nice or kind you will be, you will always receive  hate so don't care about it. People will hate you just to satisfy themselves, show them you are not affected by it and you shouldn't be. Don't let your feelings fuck you up. It's okay if you get a breakdown or two, never bottle up your feelings. Not everyone will like you and not everyone will stay. Deal with reality and face it strongly. At the times you will be at your most vulnerable state, don't let people take advantage of it. Don't change yourself for someone else or when it is not making you happy. Change is good only when you're happy about it. Don't harm yourself for someone else, no one is worth even a single scar on your body.

Just remember most of the good things come to an end, that is life and you have to live it. You have made it so far and you have to continue.... 

Love forever,

Your younger, messed up, sad and overweight, yet doing the best I can self